I don't say much on here do I?  I'm not going to promise to do better.  That reminds me of when I was a kid, and would write in a Diary or and Journal.  I would always say, "I am going to do better," or "I am making a goal to write every week."  This was usually prompted by some church person's lesson or talk on journal keeping and the importance of writing down my experiences and feeling for the generations to come.  The problem is I love writing.  But, I have felt tainted about it, due to the fact that it's always been taught to me in church.  Church and me are not a team anymore so I am just not so sure how to go about it all.

I have tons of things to say.  I wonder though if I'm going to hurt someone by saying it.  That's dumb though.  This is my blog and I can say what I want.  I do not blog because someone tells me to, or because I want my kids or grandkids or anyone to know about me, my life, or my experiences.  I blog because I have a lot in my head and if it stays there it tends to build up and turn into drama or anger or sadness.  I don't like any of those things, so I'm going to blog, or journal or what ever.  I'm not making it private because I like reading other people blogs, so it's only fair that I keep mine open for others to read.

I don't think I've ever explained my blog title.  Saving Myself ..... Really.  About 3 or 4  years ago I learned a life changing lesson, well actually a lot of life changing lessons, but this one in particular has stuck with me.  I attended a series of self mastery trainings, the second of which is where I learned this great lesson.  I won't share the details, because I get that if anyone else would like to experience what I have I would ruin it for them.  But I will say that for most of my life I have lived, survived, and based my happiness and well being making sure that the happiness, survival, and expectations of acquaintances and loved ones in my life were being met.  So when I was faced with the fact that I would put myself last, even to death, for the well being of others, and not figuring out that I actually could the save myself, and assist others has altered my perspective greatly.

It's so easy...I get to take care of, or save myself first, or I am of no good to anyone else, period.   Really, how much simpler could that have been.  I was running around doing for others and ignoring my needs, and when it all came crashing down, I was beating myself up for not being able to continue as I had been.  WOW!!!  More about all that later...I just wanted to share the reason for my blog title..in case anyone reads it and wonders...With that I say...................BRING ON THE DAY!!!!! (or the rain as it may be)

CREATED

Created to follow 

to submit 

to "Do Right".

What if what's "Right" isn't the same for me.

Who can say this is the only way to be true,

That it will make me free.

Love one another ....

unless they don't fit.

Unless they are worthy,

you may as well quit.

Bring in more lives,

make sure that it's clear,

line upon line till the precepts

are all taught.

Your agency is free as long as

you follow, watch them, give them the lead.

Judgment and blame it's all for a show.

Who is better, more worthy, not pointing fingers.

Behind the closed doors there is fighting and yelling.

No one says, BE who you are.  I will love you the same.

That's the point of creation, don't you know, don't you see,

All of us equal.

Lady and man,

Beggar and thief.

The couple that love one another regardless of gender.

The couple that marry or not.

The couple that exchange vows in a field with wild flowers,

or in a white temple gown and eternal mirrors around.

Created Equal....it says.

Everyone has a beautiful soul.

To live with and love, to share with their other...

To BE, to create what ever they wish...

I AM, HE IS, SHE IS, THEY ARE, WE ARE.....CREATED.

Just a little writing I did the other day...maybe it's goofy but that's how I was feeling...just wanted to share..

Jessica's "Daily Affirmation"

Some day I'm going to write something really important on here....I promise!!!

Changing Season???

About time I changed that layout huh?

I'm sure that it's actually going to be Spring now...I think...

Love and Light

Another WOW...I love what she has to say......

I used to love Valentine's Day...a long time ago.  It's been a long time since I enjoyed the hearts and flowers and the sentiments of love on this day. 
This year I spent it at work, 4th day in a row.  One would think that I would be grumpy or sad, but I'm not, I'm calm and joyous...(I know, but I am).  I didn't get to spend the day with my guy, or my kids.  But I got a real treat, Doug brought us all a delicious smoked brisket and chicken lunch.  He stayed up all night and watched the smoker.  He made potato salad, baked beans, rolls and grilled corn on the cob.  It was so good....delicious in fact.  He brought my boys along too...

ESPAVO

TODAY'S REALIZATION

Raising kids.....what fun!!!!

Belly Laughing.....OMG

Hmmmm.....Something to take a look at.....

Neglected Blog

Oh my poor neglected blog.  I look at it all the time, I imagine what I could say and what great subjects I might write about...but here sits my little blog...
So I've loved, loved, loved, Life Mastery....it's exactly what I deserve at this time of my life....
It seems my physical body is fighting with my spirit...but I get to over come that and move onward and upward...
Thanksgiving will be here soon.  The kids are going to DisneyLand...Doug and I will be here....I guess we will go to Chuck's or something for dinner....I would rather do that....making Thanksgiving dinner for 2 is just silly...that holiday deserves lots of food and lots food and commotion.  Next year!!!!

TGIF

HA HA THIS MAKES ME LAUGH

ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND

 

HAPPY HALLOWEEN FRIENDS

A ROCK

Attraction

They pull me toward them 

Large, Flat, Angled, 

Just right for laying on

Just right for gazing upon the clouds

Just right for seeing the stars

Just right for experiencing, feeling, and knowing.

Strength

They are grounded

They know their place

They know their purpose

They are resistant yet pliable

They are ever changing yet remain grand

Protection

They have a place for me to be

Their curves and crevices cradle me

They keep small flowers and grasses safe

They allow me to speak

They listen to me
They speak to me

10 TRUTHS

I have learned so much in the last 3 days...it's more than I can share so I will just list some truths that I have learned.

1. God is not a religion and a religion is not God.

2. It is what it is, rise above it.

3. Rocks are powerful, safe, and provide protection.

4. Belief systems are BS (bull shit).

5. I get to work on leaving my BS in the past.

6. The lessons of my past serve me now.

7. I am not the person behind the mask.

8. I AM a powerful, beautiful, peaceful, open woman of light.

9. I have a creator, I am a creator.

10. I AM.

 

I am in gratitude for these truths....I am in gratitude for my angels....I am in gratitude for nature, and the answers, and assistance she gives....I am in gratitude for truth and love, trust, and God.

JUST BE!

Public Speaking

I wish the great thoughts that I formulate in my head would come out of my mouth when I am asked to speak before people. I don't feel afraid, my mind just goes blank and I can't say what I've intended to. I don't like it.
Sometimes I wait for the inspiration to come, but it never does.

Laugh...

Yup just what I deserved to start the day.

Fabulous Quote.....

“I swore never to be silent whenever human beings endure suffering and humiliation. We must always take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented.”
Holocaust survivor, Elie Weisel (NIGHT)

Amazing.....that's all I have to say